I can tell that we are gonna be friends....

God is awesome.
I am always in awe of the way he works things out.

Time out: I am also in awe of His grace. I could never do something that would make Him not love me...I am a wretched, unworthy sinner...and He still forgives and offers love and grace...beautiful.

Back to my original thought.... :)

I love how God provides and works things out! I have been LOVING getting to know my friends in Monroe. We are SO much alike. God brought us all together to be amazing friends...that will soon turn into family.

SO excited. SO ready to be there!

On another side(ish) note, thank you to everyone who has donated financially to me. God will bless your offerings :)

I have 25 days until I leave.
I love you all.

God is love,
Jessi

Give me faith to be strong, Father I am so weak...

All too often I make an attempt to steal control away from God.

I think I am able to handle this world on my own.

I am so thankful for my forgiving and gracious Father. He holds me close when I collapse from lack of strength and tells me He loves me more than anything in the world. He offers me more grace than I deserve.

He picks me up, brushes the dirt off, and takes me back. He always takes me back, He always loves.

Thank you.

I leave in 44 days. Each day that passes the excitement inside me grows more and more. I am so ready to see God move in huge ways. I am so excited to meet my class, the people I will spend six months with.

God is amazing. I could never live without Him. I cannot imagine life without Him.

I am so grateful.

God is love,

Jessi

2 months!

I have two months to the day I leave.

I ask for continued prayers.
You all mean SO much to me :)

God is love,
Jessi

Oh, how time flies.

June has come and gone and I havent written about much of anything since I got accepted to YWAM Charlotte.

For the past 3 weeks I've been working at North Shore doing camps mon-thursday.
God has blessed me so much with this opportunity. The kids keep me smiling, laughing, and always learning (and they help me develop my patience haha)

God will never cease to amaze me with his goodness, grace, and blessings. He is so good to me.

I leave for North Carolina in just about 2 months.
I am nervous.
I am SO excited.
I am ready.

God is Love,
Jessi

Jehovah Jireh

God never ceases to amaze me with his blessings!!!

I have been accepted to YWAM Charlotte! I am so excited to start my life long journey of serving God. It is insane how everything worked out perfectly. My only concern was how I was going to pay for it...God provided it. amazing.

I had been stressing out a little bit with what I was going to do with my summer. I wanted to serve God and be kept busy. I prayed about it.

God provided me with a job working at a local ministry here for the whole summer with my youth leader and a friend.
I am so in awe with how God worked everything out perfectly.

Jehovah Jireh.
"Our God Provides"

God is Love,
Jessi

God hears me.

So, this is from a blog I wrote on February 23rd, 2009:

"I am a junior in High school, i am beginning to be asked the infamous question "what do you want to do with your life" and as of right now, I'm not concerned with WHAT i'm going to do, but WHO I'm going to be. I know God is calling me into some kind of ministry, i just don't know what. And i am in no hurry to find out, in his due time, he will let me know."

God is awesome.
God is amazing.
God's will is perfect.

For over a year I have been praying for what God wants with my life.
And he has answered LOUD and CLEAR. He wants me in missions. He wants me doing his work every single day. For a long time I thought God was calling me into nursing. I got comfortable and complacent there.
God showed me that comfortableness and complacency in itself can be a sin. It is accepting where you are and rejecting where you could be.
I am so thankful God speaks to me, and shows me what he wants from me.
I am a wretched sinner, and he still speaks to me.

beautiful.

I have been working on praying as though God hears my every word.
He doesn't just listen to the desperate prayers of need.
He doesn't just listen to the praise from ground breaking moments.
He listens also, to everything in between.


God is Love,
Jessi

anxiety is washed away

I have been praying about my future for a while.
I know God has a HUGE plan for me, and this plan is perfect.
Through all of this He's taught me that I need to rely on Him for everything, and that I should never get comfortable, because He will continue to mold me, and shape me.
He has taught me to live without fear, and to love fearlessly.
He has made it almost impossible for me to hold on to any sense of negative human emotion. Hurt, sadness, regret, shame, anger, anything. When I think about the way that God LOVES me, it is impossible to feel anything but happiness, joy, peace, thankfulness, hope. It is amazing.

I applied to YWAM Charlotte. I feel a HUGE calling from God to go into missions, and this is the place he's lead me to. I prayed about it for a few weeks and decided to go through with applying. I mailed it in last week, and should be hearing back from them early this week.
I have a good feeling about this.

I am praying God will take away any sense of anxiety that I feel.
It is satan trying to plant doubt inside me, guess what Satan? Not gonna work.
Ecclesiastes 11:10 "So then, BANISH ANXIETY from your heart..."
Psalm 91!!

God is Love,
Jessi