Let's go dancing in the minefields and sailing in the storms

The future freaks me out. It puts butterflies in my stomach. It puts a childish grin on my face. It puts my mind in a million different directions. It makes me nervous. The future looks at pictures of the past and prompts me to move on. The past looks at the future with hesitation. The future pulls me in a direction I’ve been waiting for my whole life it says to me “Jessi, this is what you want! What are you waiting for?”, but my childhood pulls me in the opposite direction screaming at me “Where are you going? I’m not done yet!”
But then God breaks through the thoughts, He goes around and picks up every thought, every word, and every punctuation mark and puts them in three separate baskets. One is labeled “Future”, another “Present” and finally “Past”. Then he picks me up puts me on His lap and points to the basket labeled “Past” He says


“Daughter, my beloved, my princess, this is over with. People come, and people go. Hold on to your pictures and memories; hold on to the happy, throw away the sad. Forgive those you need to forgive. Forgiveness is not saying that the one that hurt you was right. It’s stating that I am faithful and I will do what is right.”


Then my Abba Father walks over to the basket labeled “Future” He picks me back up and sets me back on His lap, wiping away some tears, He holds me close and says;


“My love, my precious child, I have revealed a piece of my heart regarding your future. Take it, hold on to it, and trust me when I tell you something. You heard me correctly, it might be scary, it might be exciting for you, but wait patiently. Everything will play out the way I want it to, in MY time. I will only give you pieces of the puzzle that I know you can handle. I’ll never give too much. I know it’s hard to wait for what I’ve promised, I know it seems like it will never come, but trust me baby girl, trust me.”


Lastly my Daddy walks over to the basket labeled “Present” and says to me


“My baby, my girl, why are you having trouble living in this? I’ve given you this day for a reason. Once it is over, it is gone forever. What will you use it for? Will you use it looking at pictures from the past and dreaming of tomorrow? Or will you use it to enjoy the blessings I’ve given you, the people I’ve given you, or the breath I’ve breathed into your lungs? Enjoy now. Enjoy this day, this hour, this minute, this second; because once it passes you by, it’s gone. Remember what I’ve told you about the past and the future, but this is now, make it count.”



We're not dead my friends, let start acting like we're alive.

Show me Your glory

I've only updated once since I've been here, and if I made my best attempt to try and explain all of the things I've learned, all of the people I've met, even all the places I've been I would never be able to do it justice.

God has been speaking to me. And I really mean speaking to me, not just "oh I think this is what God wants me to do" as it's been for the past 4 years, it's "Oh hey God, I hear you LOUD and CLEAR!" Walking in a constant awareness and friendship with the holy spirit is something I couldn't explain unless you've experienced it. It's like having an on-going conversation with the God who made the heavens and the earth, the one who died upon a cross for a wretched sinner like me, and the one who is won't relent until He has it all. And when I got here, I finally threw up my hands and yelled to the heavens "HERE I AM. All of me, finally, everything, I am wholly Yours"
I've learned that out of the 6 billion people in this world, the 6 billion souls, God still wants to listen to me. To my one soul.
I've learned that laughter and friendships knows no bounds. That when there is a common purpose amongst a group of people then there is always love, always friendship, and there is no judgement.

Life in this house is always interesting. There is never nothing going on. As I sit here in the living room typing this, I hear the chatter of the cleaning crew, the pounding feet upstairs, and someone yelling "BRITT!". There is always someone singing, playing guitar, chatting on the porch swing, playing a hardcore game of volleyball or yelling something hilarious.

Life is SO good.
I've never been happier, and I am SO excited to see where God takes me and my future :)

Love you all,

Jessi